Rants

Disappointed! I can't help but to feel disappointed. A person can truly be multi-layered and so very different in personality when under different circumstances or with different people. Why would you lie? Why?

"No, I never had a girlfriend. Nah, I'm not a player."

And then I found out a little secret. You slept with somebody from the birthday party you attended. Yup, thanks a lot. That really shows your character. It is sad really. That you even bothered to lie. You're a big guy. But truth seems to be difficult on your tongue.

Guys, now guys are real pain-in-the-asses. They lie, they cheat, they beg. For what? To get in your pants.
*Sighs*
You really shattered your image in front of me. What is the point of lying really? A little truth will not hurt anyone. You were man enough to sleep with a person of the opposite gender but not man enough to admit it.

I wonder if you lost your balls to her while f***ing her? I used to dream of Prince Charming and I thought you were quite and almost perfect except one little fault of yours. Until I heard, you slept with her. There is so much I can take, but you must know that I am quite disgusted by you.

Not because you slept with her, but because you saw the point of lying to my face. Guys take me for a fool, but know that I always know what you guys do in the end. I guess it is impossible to find somebody like in the fairytale stories that we all used to love as children.

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Have you ever heard of the love song that  makes you all fuzzy and warm inside? Just feel like cuddling up and snuggling to your special someone. And then suddenly you realised, wait, I don't have a special someone. Sad ain't it?

Oh well, that is life. You walk down the street and can only watch in envy at the happy couples strolling hand in hand. Or maybe your friends who seem to be in great relationships. Can't really help but to wish that you had someone who can treat you like that. To make you feel special.

Probaly you'll find that someone today, tomorrow, next week, blah blah blah...or never. But who cares right? It is not as if you cannot live without them. If you think you can't, just sing Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive".

Ranted,
MaeQ

Of Parties and People

So, it has been 2 weeks since I last posted something on my blog. And well, pretty much a few interesting things have been going on. Last week, we had a party in honour of my sister's birthday. And this week we had a halloween party and a concert the next day. It was hectic and fun but totally exhausting.

Parties are loved by everybody. Some are great and some aren't. But hey, the parties I went for this past 2 weeks were great in their own little ways. The people who attended, make it all the more interesting. They were an awesome bunch. Strangers coming together and having lots of fun. As I have seen and experienced first hand, a lot of effort and thoughts were put together in making parties successful.

So, here is one for all the people who made a great effort in putting up awesome parties! And here is another for all the people who attended the parties adn made it rocked! Ganbei!

Cheers,
MaeQ

This One's For You

This post is a special dedication to my baby girl sister. Wooooooot! (Personally, I do not know how many times I am suppose to give her special treatment...and she is only 19...hmm)

Here you are, all grown up...
Already 19 you are...
I still remember my first memory of you...
It was of mushroom pinching from the refrigerator at home!

The countless fights we had...
The scratching and pinching of one another...
And not to forget the telling on each other...
And also the butt following from one end to the other...
Not to mention head-diving into trouble together...
Making life quite unbearable for our parents at times...
And all these when we were very much younger...

Now that we are older...
Well, not much has changed...
We still fight, minus the scratching and pinching...
We don't really tell on each other....do we?
There is no more butt following, but now, it is side by side...heroines in action!
We still head-dive into trouble together...co-conspirators we are...
And we still make life miserable for some chosen people...

All I want to say is that, for the 19 years that I know you, I still love you even if we are so very different in nature..
I wanna thank you for always being there for me...
Thank you for always listening to me...
Thank you for being patient with me even if I do not deserve it at times...
Thank you for always standing up for me whenever I needed it...
Thank you, most of all, for bearing with me all these years...

Oh yeah, you still got a life time of putting up with me... =)

Anyway, I just want to wish you a blessed and happy birthday!
May you find a place by God's side and continue to be his angel on earth.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!

Lots of love,

MaeQ

I Try...

I don't have much time to blog, but I will because I promised myself that I would...Ok...
The past weekend has been very busy and it will continue to be busy until my semester holidays start...I just can't wait for it...I'm swamped with practicals and assignments almost every other day...And as I stay here blogging, one assignment is already beckoning me, telling me that it is due this Thursday...

I hate procrastinating...I really do...but I can't help it...and I have like 3 more assignments to do with a few more popping up the last minute as usual...I thought secondary school life was hectic...little did I know of college life...People always say that college life is the best years of one's life...I cannot agree or disagree to this statement as I have yet to graduate...

But let me give you a glimpse of what I think when people say that college life was the best years of their life. These people could be the very ones that I am seeing around right now...flunking papers, resitting exams or scrapping by their papers...barely...spends their time in the student center playing computer games...or skipping classes and fooling around during lessons...never a care in the world...You'd be thinking, "Bill Gates succeeded." Excuse me, if you had the brains of Bill Gates, you won't be here...you'd be running your own company by now and partying till dawn...He is super smart and you are a super moron....see? Total opposites....since you don't have his abilities you  might as well pay attention.

"Ya...you study now, good results, for what? You go out work also no use what....your skills are most important, not your exam results...."
This is one response I got from a student and I bet many others will say the same if I told them to be more serious in their studies...hello? People? Are you morons by nature or just won't use your God given brains to think? The papers that we are sitting are all basics for us to use in the future...you're not learning stuff that you can throw in the dustbin like the ones taught to us in secondary school, you are in the hospitality line!

And just in case you did not make the connection my dear friends, final exams is only accounted for 40 percent of the entire subject. That means the other 60 percent has to come from skills learnt and from observation isn't it? Nobody can have excellent results unless they fared well for both written and practical examinations. So please don't tell me that my results are not important because it shows my commitment alright? We are not in secondary school anymore where the exams are all based only on written papers...there is more to it than that.

Yes, I agree that we do need our R&R time as all study and no play made Jack a dull boy...I don't like studying, but it doesn't mean that I won't...I love playing, but it doesn't mean I do it all the time...one must know one's limit and when to pull the stops...there are limits to everything...and by growing up you will actually learn more...accept more responsibilities and focus...it's not very hard is it?

Wake up and smell the flowers people...or better yet, yourself...if you stink, go get a bath and refresh your thoughts...nobody wants your yesterday's smell and thoughts...move onwards people and pay more attention to what you do now...it may help you in the near future....you're not called graduates for no reason.

Move onwards,
MaeQ

Matters Of The Heart

I've been trying too hard not to love you, but I love anyway - Boyzone

Oh yes, this comes from the lyrics of their song Love You Anyway. Most people would agree or identify with this statement at least once in their life. We try so hard not to like that other person across the room or next to us, but that feeling is so hard to ignore and thrown aside. Everything is made harder by seeing that 'someone' nearly everyday, either in school, work or anywhere we play.

You always wonder each morning if that 'someone' will be there when you reach your work place or college. If he will make eye contact with you for that day and greet you with that smile of his that seems to melt your heart. If perhaps for once in your life you would be brave enough to actually go up to him and say hello and make a decent conversation. Or just to chat with him if you already know him.

And you can't help but to have that fleeting thought of jealousy when he approaches the opposite gender who is more attractive than you. Hoping and wishing of course that your 'someone' will not fall in love or into a relationship with that pretty girl or that hot chick. Yes, everyone has been there and done that and for a number of people, still there.

It's so hard just to make eye contact and smile at the person that we like, yet it is so easy to do it to strangers. Sometimes one is even mistaken for being cold and aloft when reacting to someone they like. It is not easy, this love 'thing'. Always praying that the other person might actually one day wake up and decide to see that you are so much better than the other girl.

The feeling of frustration eating into you day by day because you just can't seem to sum up your courage to admit your feelings to him. And beating up yourself mentally when you missed the opportunity to tell him your feelings. It is of course much easier to pretend that nothing is wrong with you. Pretend that you are just buddies and nothing more. Deep inside though, your feelings are yearning to be heard.

Why is it that you have not admitted? Could it be because of the fear of rejection? Or feeling afraid that the friendship that has been built would be broken? Or because we actually think so lowly of ourselves and feel that we do not deserve him and nowhere near his status?

And worst of all, we all fall for guys that other or many girls like. Only we think that he is special and has the attributes of a great person that only we can see, at the beginning. But once our feelings have actually developed for him, we realize that...uh-oh...we are definitely not the only one. Why, oh, why were we so blind and did not see this coming?

When he glances at you or gives you that smile or avoiding your gaze, you wonder that what he actually thinks of you. Or if he is even thinking of you. And trying hard to read or understand his actions and the way he reacts to you or around you. If he is cold-shouldering you because he has feelings for you or dislikes you. Women, just like men would pay dearly or a lot just to read what is going through the minds of men.

Until then, we just have to play the guessing game with a little hope. Matters of the heart is never easy and predictable. All we can do is pray that when the day comes, our heart will not be broken into a million tiny pieces.

With love,
MaeQ

1st Attempt, Again.

Ok...so here it is...I suck at blogging and I am attempting to...I have read many blogs and yet I still can't even attempt a decent blog...it sucks really...
I have countless ideas in my head that is just waiting to be written out...grouses, comments, thoughts...and...so much more...

Where do I begin?
How do I begin?
What should I begin with?

Blogging phenomena is huge...is it because it offers a platform for people to voice anything out in public with the security of not having to say it out aloud in public?
Or is it possibly therapeutic because  it is like an online diary where you actually want people to read instead of keeping it to yourself?

Well, for whatever reason, blogging is gaining a huge following.
So, I am going to start blogging too...and hopefully stick to this regime..I tried once...posted three times and just forgot about it...
So, today I'm gonna try again and hopefully maintain a decent pace.

Until then,
MaeQ